August 14, 2013 Mad Hatter

FEELING PROFOUNDLY CONFUSED?

stock-photo-girl-before-a-white-roadsign-in-fear-of-the-unknown-134240561 So, I approach it with caution and spontaneity, thinking through what I can, but praying for grace to accept what I cant change. Sometimes, yes, giving up myself to a higher motivation. Even sometimes, just letting it all pass. I guess, its just human to be human.

I have always wondered, what should guide my decisions at that moment. That moment when you think you should move on,yet your hearts asks you to be cautious. Or when you feel, you should quit, yet your heart wants you to persist.

That strain, that is very often created when, what our hearts wills and what our eyes conceive are two huge contradictions. That second, when no data, or history can assure the accuracy of your decisions.

I find myself on this path more often than not, and I believe many human beings find themselves here. I have done all experiments, sometimes trusted my gut, sometimes prayed, sometimes just took one path, hoping that it will be the best.

And just like in all experiments, some work out, some disappoint.

Yet, the fear I face each day, is that I cannot keep on experimenting, or disappointing every day. The brevity of time and life cannot afford that luxury. Yet, the dream that somehow I will ever get a way out, a formula, a method of handling all this with precision has faded.

So, I have resigned to this truth. That life is a risk. And that, more often than not, we will be called to take the risk. That if we are profoundly timid to take any, we will never live, that if we are profoundly brave to take all, we may never live again.

So, I approach it with caution and spontaneity, thinking through what I can, but praying for grace to accept what I cant change. Sometimes, yes, giving up myself to a higher motivation. Even sometimes, just letting it all pass. I guess, its just human to be human.

To cry and laugh, to succeeded and fail sometimes, to impress and disappoint sometimes, to face days and nights sometimes. All that matters, is that you know deep down your heart, that you did your best. Honestly, your best.

Have a Reflective day friends!

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